Monday, July 23, 2007
Here I am again, having the similar feeling and going through the same ordeal... - A break up. I tried... Lowering my pride to look for him and having one purpose in mind and heart - To solve our problem and keep this relationship... But, no matter what I did and said, all he said was he doesn't want this relationship anymore. He is a totally changed person and he knows it. Even he knows deep down he still loves me, he not only didn't want to admit, he was stopping himself from recalling our times together. Then there came this girl he mentioned...
Andre if you are ever reading this, everything you said about the girl and you, it worked... I felt hurt... Not because I believed your words, But your main aim was to hurt me and you did. I don't know which are the words you said was true. I only know I still love you. And I can't trust you anymore... You said you tried... Not hard enough otherwise such a thing won't happen. We are always going through obstacles and you are simply giving up this time all because you want your life, your freedom. Compromise is what I want for us. A chance is what I asked from you. Not even taking on the account that there were so many times when you needed a chance, I gave you... The one time after you got high after drinking, you did something wrong and my feelings for you simply just fade immediately, you also asked for a chance... And because I know I can be with you, I tried my best to love you... Till today, my love for you hasn't lessen but unknowingly, I gave my whole heart to you. You didn't even hear my cries and just shut me up without giving me this one chance I asked for. Just as when you always say you are not those typical guys, you have already become one - a very irresponsible one... Why you have become this way... I'll wait and at the same time to forget. Andre... You'll have my blessings and don't ever feel you are alone. Please don't neglect your sister and father... Remember to bring her to watch the movie. She's been looking forward to it. Know your limits and don't make your father angry all the time. Is not he has something against you but its because you never really listens to him thats why he gets angry. Most importantly, Andre, I may not be there with you anymore to take care of you but just remember this that you're not alone... Deep down, I'm with you...
